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Not really a Journal entry that is intended to be of.. informative on art status or anything like that. It is really just something I feel the need to say.

Sometimes in my strength I have built up in the past year or so, there are weak spots that can be found.

And today one of them was struck so hard that a part of the wall had crumbled and a pain all to familiar and crippling had washed over me.

But like any good army squad everything worked together and the wall was quickly built back up before damages could come to be too high.

As it seems from this evening, I am not as strong as I had hoped to be. but with this evening I can gain lesson, and build more still.

I have decided, that my heart will be walled away, so that when you feel you should be the one that toys with me as you see fit.

I am the one laughing. not you. None of you. Because I don't want anyone in here any more. Nobody deserves it. and to those that I have given it to freely.

I trust that you will not all make that same mistake that has caused this reaction.

With this change I have been made new. With new friends and new ways.

This of course couldn't have been done without some hands on my shoulders, and for them I am eternally grateful. They know who they are I told them personally how much I appreciate them.

Slowly I will work my way out of what you've made me into. And I will be more extravagant and more amazing than anything you have ever seen.

But until then, Goodnight, you dirty little maggot.